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‘How 10 years in Germany has changed me’

Communicating openly with others, becoming sporty and embracing a balanced life - Germany has had a huge impact on Shelley Pascual. Based in Passau, the Toronto native lists some of the crucial ways she’s changed after a decade in ‘Schland.

'How 10 years in Germany has changed me'
The Bavarian city of Passau in spring. Sitting just across the border from Austria and less than an hour by train from Linz, you can travel to Passau and a host of other border towns just using the ÖBB KlimaTicket. Photo courtesy of Shelley Pascual.

On a February’s day 10 years ago, I landed in Germany on a one-way ticket from Toronto with a suitcase (actually, a backpack) full of hopes and dreams. I vividly remember feeling excited yet nervous when I arrived at the Braunschweig train station. What if I didn’t find a job? What if the relationship I was pursuing didn’t work out? 

I never thought I’d spend the majority of my adult life here and move to four very different German cities. I didn’t think I’d launch my career here, tie the knot here, learn to speak a second language, learn to swim, learn to drive a manual vehicle, buy my first vehicle, the list goes on!

Having experienced countless milestones and challenges over the past decade, I’ve come into my own and grown confident and comfortable in my own skin. While it’s tricky to put into exact words, in this piece I take a shot at explaining how Deutschland has shaped me into who I am today.

Identity and quality of life

Naturally, my identity has been shaped by my adopted country. While I believe I’ll always identify as Canadian, in many ways I feel European, and sometimes even German! This is a concept that’s hard to explain, but one I’ve found other foreigners abroad can relate with. 

It’s like I don’t feel I fully belong in Canada, even though I was born there. When I visited Toronto for the first time in 3.5 years last Christmas, I felt this intensely. But then again, I don’t feel like I fully belong in Germany either.

Filipino roots, Canadian by citizenship and not quite German. Shelley Pascual holds a photo of herself on 'Doors Open Day' in 2017.

Filipino roots, Canadian by citizenship – and not quite German. Shelley Pascual holds a photo of herself on ‘Doors Open Day’ in 2017. Photo courtesy of Shelley Pascual

READ ALSO: What I’ve learned from five years of living in Berlin

Still, after working and paying taxes in Germany for so long, it’s hardly surprising that its society and culture have shaped my world views. I’m the proud owner of a vintage moped from East Germany. I also formerly reported on Germany’s news with The Local in Berlin.

What can I say? I’m a hardcore Germany fan, despite all the things that get on my last nerve about living here (see @berlinauslaendermemes). And I’ve been very vocal about the reasons why I’ve stayed.

The scales are tipped in Germany’s favour when it comes to quality of life. Whether in Passau or Berlin, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the freedom of being able to hop on my bike and ride not just for leisure, but to get to work or run errands.

Workers take their vacation days seriously here and this has no doubt rubbed off on me too. It’s the reason why I cannot fathom how and why the standard paid time off Canadians get is a mere two weeks. 

While the work-life balance topic in Germany lags behind Scandinavian countries, it’s still lightyears ahead of North America. Only as a member of German society have I learned how much a balanced life and living to work (rather than working to live) means to me.

Open communication and no longer prudish

Another key way in which Germany has influenced me is that it taught me to communicate openly and honestly with others. Germans are known for their directness. Rather than beat around the bush, they simply get to the heart of the matter it’s sincere and fine and generally accepted.

A mural on a building along Queen Street West in Toronto.

A mural on a building along Queen Street West in Toronto. Photo courtesy of Shelley Pascual

But this openness is very different from the culture I grew up in. Whereas my younger self would shy away from sharing my opinions and shove important topics under the carpet, today that no longer aligns with my values. I try to always keep it real with myself and others.

Speaking of openness, I’ve also gotten on board with the German ease toward nudity. Before you get any ideas, let me explain. While I’m by no means an avid sauna goer, long gone are the days I covered myself up in women’s changing rooms.

Growing up in Canada, in changing rooms at gyms and swimming pools I remember people try to cover themselves up as much as possible. The culture is just much more prude. Now, though, I’m used to a society where FKK exists and people are at ease with nudity and actually find it quite liberating.

The ups and downs of bilingualism

Another crucial change is that moving to Germany prompted me to learn German. The fact that my in-laws don’t speak English was a big motivator in the beginning to learn their language. It was ideal that Braunschweig was the first city I moved to as well, since back then you couldn’t really get by there without speaking German.

After about two years, I’d gotten my German to a level where I could get by in daily life, make small talk and even make friends. Still, even today I have ups and downs with deutsch. And it’s precisely these experiences which I’ve benefited greatly from. 

A German dictionary. Shelley has learned a new language in her time in Germany.

A German dictionary. Shelley has learned a new language in her time in Germany. Photo: picture alliance/dpa | Oliver Berg

As other language learners know, speaking in any language which isn’t your native one requires vulnerability. At times, too, it can be humbling.

Just the other day at work, I suddenly realised I was the only non-native German speaker in a call. So I pushed myself to speak German, even though I’m used to speaking English in a professional setting. Naturally, I worried whether my colleagues would notice my mistakes. 

Yep, I’m still self conscious about my German even after 10 years. On the one hand, I feel guilty for not being at a near native level with it. But on the other hand, my current B2 level is sufficient for living a full life here.

Besides, it must be decent enough if I’m able to learn yet another language in it. Right now I’m taking an A1 Italian course at the Volkshochschule, and the language of instruction is German.

It’s cheesy but true: I’m proud of my bilingualism. Not only has it helped my brain become more healthy, complex and actively engaged, it’s also definitely been the key to connecting with Germans, German culture and ultimately integrating into this country.

Love for sports and the outdoors

Would I have become as active and outdoorsy as I am now had I stayed in Canada, or moved to some other country? I guess I’ll never know. One thing’s for sure, though: of all the German cities I’ve lived in it was in Munich where I truly discovered my love for the outdoors.

I’ve come to feel most at home in southern Bavaria, probably because I’m meant to be close to the mountains. With the Alps less than an hour’s drive away from Munich, during the pandemic lockdowns I went on dozens of hikes in the Bavarian Alps. In the summertime I learned to stand-up paddleboard and paddled in nearly all of the lakes close to Munich.

READ ALSO: 10 of the best hiking day outs from Munich

Now, based in Passau, there are endless opportunities for sports enthusiasts like me, what with the Danube river, the Inn river, Bayerischer Wald National Park and the Austrian Alps all at my doorstep! I know I’m lucky to live so close to natural wonders.

Picturesque Passau.

Picturesque Passau. Shelley fell in love with the Bavarian outdoors. Photo: picture alliance / Armin Weigel/dpa | Armin Weigel

This privilege has actually made me reflect on my childhood and how little time I spent in nature. This explains why, back in December when I visited Toronto, it was important to me to visit provincial parks in the area which I’d never been to before. 

Resilience

The fact that Germany has kicked me in the butt several times has no doubt shaped me. Did I mention I was once literally booted out of the country? Or that I’ve nearly given my left rib to the Ausländeramt so that they could process one of my work visas on time?

Living here as a foreigner isn’t without its frustrations. The country’s love of rules and bureaucracy still has not grown on me, and likely never well. But each hurdle I’ve overcome has made me that much stronger.

Even though I’ve flown back to Germany from Toronto’s Pearson airport many, many times now, each time is just has hard as the last. Although I choose to live abroad, that doesn’t mean it gets easier living so far away from family and close friends.

Another major disadvantage to #expatlife I’ve found has been making friends. Other internationals you meet constantly come and go, and I’m one of them. Loneliness can be very real. 

Ultimately, I can’t complain because I’ve chosen this life. And I know both the pros and cons about living here have helped me grow. Germany has made me a tough cookie (on most days, at least).

READ ALSO: 12 ways to improve your life in Germany without even trying

I don’t know who I would’ve become had I not been in Deutschland all this time. But I do know that I’m happy with (and might I add damn proud of) the person I’ve become. In this way, I’m thankful.

For all I’ve benefitted from living here though, I actually don’t imagine I’ll stay forever. If the day I leave Germany does come, I might just have to write a piece then explaining why and how another place managed to steal my heart.

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Why are people in Germany getting ‘unhappier’?

Germany has fallen to 24th place in the UN's World Happiness Report, with the under 30s ranking significantly lower. It's still a stable and economically prosperous compared to many countries, so why is happiness on the decline?

Why are people in Germany getting 'unhappier'?

The UN’s World Happiness Report, published this week, puts Germany in 24th position on its national happiness ranking, down from 16th compared to last time the index was updated.

This puts Germany just behind the US (23rd), which has also fallen from a top 20 ranking for the first time this year. Just ahead of the US and Germany is the United Arab Emirates (22nd) and Slovenia (21st).

Immediately following Germany are Mexico (24th), Uruguay (25th) and France (26th).

Finland and Denmark continue to rank as the world’s happiness leaders.

What’s causing German unhappiness?

Germans are not known to be the most smiley bunch. But the country’s economic prosperity and reliable health and welfare systems have been credited with promoting a generally positive outlook on life for the majority of Germans.

But this year’s World Happiness Report joins a growing list of indicators that suggest that satisfaction in the Bundesrepublik is on the decline.

In the 2023 EU happiness index, Germany was ranked second to last among the 27 member states.

Nordic countries, such as Denmark, Norway, Sweden, and Finland have consistently come at the top of the UN World Happiness Report since the report began in 2012. 

READ ALSO: German project spotlights happiness through the eyes of a child

“The fact that Germany lost so many places surprises me – I would have expected a less severe decline,” Catarina Lachmund, Senior Analyst at the Happiness Research Institute, told The Local. She added that there is not yet an established explanation for the decline in happiness across the country, although there are some possible ones.

As opposed to the Nordic states, Germany has gotten some criticism recently for leaning towards austerity during a time the economy has stopped growing and the cost of living is rising.

Speaking to our sister site, The Local Denmark, Lachmund said, “The Nordic model turns out to be doing a lot of good for its citizens. There’s a lot they are doing correctly, mainly funnelling wealth into wellbeing.” 

Russia’s war in Ukraine and severe inflation likely also contributed to Germany’s falling happiness score, researchers found. The 2024 report is based on data collected between 2021 and 2023, during which time the conflict and related effects, such as soaring energy prices, made headlines on a daily basis.

Unfortunately for fresh arrivals, the slipping happiness of German natives is compounded by the perpetually low satisfaction scores of foreign nationals in the country.

woman in the rain

The 2024 World Happiness Report suggests satisfaction in the Bundesrepublik is on the decline. In the EU happiness index, Germany is ranked second to last. Photo: picture alliance/dpa | Sina Schuldt

According to surveys published by InterNations, the world’s largest community of foreign nationals, Germany has continuously ranked among the bottom of list with some of the unhappiest and loneliest foreign residents worldwide.

The categories that new arrivals tend to rank Germany most harshly on include making friends and the friendliness of locals.

Racism and the growing popularity of far-right politics that include anti-immigration policies are also among many foreigners’ concerns.

The kids aren’t alright

Young Germans are significantly less happy than their more elderly counterparts – the country’s under 30 population ranks 47th for happiness.

As noted by the World Happiness report, traditionally in the West “the received wisdom was that the young are the happiest and that happiness thereafter declines until middle age”, but lately youth happiness has fallen sharply in North America and Western Europe. “By contrast, happiness at every age has risen sharply in Central and Eastern Europe,” the report added.

“Objectively it’s not a great situation,” Leonard Frick, a 28-year-old German and trainee at Holtzbrinck journalism school, told The Local. “There are many things to be unhappy about. Living expenses are rising, affordable housing is scarce in big cities, good jobs are hard to come by…there’s war in Europe, and all the while our planet is slowly becoming inhospitable.”

READ ALSO: ‘Tense housing situation’ – Why a Berlin renter can’t be evicted for two years

He added that social inequality and the rise of populism are serious concerns.

All of that said, Frick suggests it’s important to keep things in perspective: “Germany is still a wonderful country to live in and compared to other regions, we’re incredibly privileged and should be thankful.”

Lachmund agrees that growing unhappiness among the younger generations in Germany is a real issue: “Germany should definitely focus on the well-being of younger people and take their concerns and needs seriously.”

How is the ranking determined?

The UN’s World Happiness report is based on Gallup World Poll data, and is analysed by wellbeing scientists. Around 100,000 people from 130 countries participate in the Gallup World Poll each year.

Those polled are asked to fill out a ‘Cantril ladder survey,’ in which they score their lives on a scale of zero to ten, zero being the worst possible life and 10 being best. 

A country’s individual score is then based on an average of those scores, called the Average Life Evaluation. The Happiness Report takes an average of the numbers given by those surveyed in each nation across the last three years. This year’s rankings are from polls carried out between 2021 and 2023. 

“You can’t name a whole country as happy but you can ask the people in the country if they’re happy or not and then say if an average population is happier than other average populations. That is what the UN Happiness report does well,” Lachmund told The Local Denmark.

In the 2024 report, Germany’s overall happiness score was 6.72. In comparison, the highest ranked country was Finland with a score of 7.74.

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