When the pandemic forced the country into nationwide lockdown in March 2020, the last thing on our minds was our nuptials.

We had the date set for September of that year and in those early days of confinement, we didn’t consider that there could be an impact on our lives as far away as six months in the future.

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Of course, we were wrong. The situation got a lot worse and with my family and friends needing to fly over from England, we made the call to postpone to 2021.

There was a lot of disappointment, naturally. We’d chosen a stunning hilltop venue in the Bolognese hills, not far from where I now live with my Italian groom-to-be, tearfully asked loved ones to be bridesmaids and witnesses, found a florist, chosen our rings, booked a photographer and I’d just flown back home to Lancashire to choose my dress.

But the happy day could wait another year. It was just a year.

Wrong again. Now, with added complications of new variants of the virus, continuing heavy lockdown measures in Italy and stumbling vaccination rollouts, we’re having to deal with something we never considered: putting off the wedding again.

Our new wedding date was set for July 2021. However, with international travel restrictions between the UK and Italy still looking much too close to the wire to be sure that will work, we’re banking on a third date: 28th August 2021.

The Italian government hasn’t yet approved guidelines for wedding ceremonies and receptions this year, so for now, we’re playing a tense waiting game.

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Why we don’t want to hold off until 2022

If this summer is still so up in the air, why not be sure and just push it back to next year?

There are a lot of reasons why we – and many other future spouses – might want to take the gamble and cross their fingers that it can still go ahead this year.

Firstly, we’re exhausted and we just want to make it to the altar. The pandemic has taken the joy away from wedding planning and robbed us of the excitement or anticipation.

We monitor the health data like virologists, scanning for clues, and we reason that last summer, Italy opened up for tourism.

Unfortunately, pencilling in a date in 2022 wouldn’t give us back that lost joy – instead, it would feel like the wedding day that will never come. If anything has taught us that life is too short, it’s the pandemic. We want to get on with our lives and not stay on hold.

Weddings are fraught with emotion from everyone involved and there are usually polarising opinions anyway. Throw in this set of coronavirus-related unknowns and wedding planning hits a fever pitch.

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With constantly changing dates comes a lot of angst for your guests too, especially those flying to Italy.

My friends and family don’t know when to book their flights and hotels again – and some can no longer make our newly arranged wedding day. After all, this is the third date they’re having to ask time off from their bosses for.

There are also other logistics to take into account. My dress is in England and I’m currently not allowed to fly back for a fitting. My mum could ship it over, but I’m worried about the expense of sending such a high-ticket item, now that sending parcels between the UK and Italy has spiked in cost.

During these conversations, my family have gently suggested that this year perhaps just might not be worth it, in the end. With so many obstacles and potential huge compromises, is this really what we want to do?

It’s true that it won’t be what we’d imagined and we’ve had to let go of any pre-pandemic ideas of how you picture your big day.

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On the other hand, one of my closest friends – and a bridesmaid – said that you can’t please everyone nor can we afford to postpone it forever. “You’re 36, love! I hope you won’t be cross with me for saying this, but if you want children, you can’t keep waiting,” she warned me. 

Planning offspring as well now? And I thought I was already frazzled. Even if having rosy-cheeked bambini wasn’t a priority for me before, she has a point. That biological clock doesn’t care about the pandemic and ticks on anyway.

There have been tears of frustration due to the stress and helplessness of it all, I’ll admit.

Going ahead with the wedding this year might give us some autonomy back, but it does cut me to the core to think that most of my friends might not make it. We were planning on a modest ceremony in any case, keeping numbers lower than the traditional huge Italian celebrations.

If we had our hearts set on inviting 200 guests, it’d already be pretty certain that we’d have to wait until next year for that. Last year, weddings resumed in small numbers, from about 15 in May, then opening up to 30 and increased to 100 by the height of summer.

Our guest list tops at around 70 people, so that’s not what’s putting the brakes on getting hitched.

What we’re keeping our eyes on is the vaccination rollout and the European health passport, which we hope will allow people to travel to Italy. But that doesn’t reassure older guests or those with health complications, who may be too afraid to travel still. That’s true for both the English party and my fiancé’s family coming from all over Italy.

Still, we reason that August is as good a chance as any, being Italy’s peak summer month.

And our optimistic side is focussing on the government releasing guidelines on wedding protocol soon. After all, it’s a sector that’s worth big bucks to the Italian economy, amounting to a turnover of 15 billion euros per year, making up 2.5% of the country’s GDP.

So what can we do in the meantime? The venue has been truly accommodating and confirmed that we can push back again to August. We’re fortunate in that, so far, we’re not being asked for extra cash.

Some wedding suppliers are putting up their rates as the months roll on. It’s not unusual for a venue to cost more each successive year, but this is another blow to couples who’ve already delayed their plans due to the Covid-19 crisis.

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On the contrary, our venue even offered our deposit back if we were struggling financially. We refused as we wanted to make sure, even to ourselves, that we will one day hear wedding bells.

Our photographer is similarly laidback, replying with a simple, ‘ci sono’ (I’ll be there), when we send rambling and pleading messages, asking for another date.

As for the other suppliers, we’re still on pause or some have even slipped off the radar, forcing us back to the drawing board. So, now we’re almost certain that early July is off the cards, we need to decide whether to take the plunge and print out those invitations for August.

We know there’s not going to be a miracle within the next four months and it will still be a wedding in times of Covid. That means that masks, distancing and hand gel stations will likely feature as much as our floral arrangements.

But life goes on – and maybe that’s exactly the reason to have a wedding this year.

To stand up and promise to stick together through the hard times, until we find the good again.